Saturday, December 26, 2009

A New Year

I find myself talking about time quite a bit. But here we go again at the beginning of a new year (in a few days or so), my plan is to do less talking about time and more informing you about my use of time.

My church has challenged me to be faithful and I have made a personal goal to get more active and adapt to a more healthy lifestyle.

Here is a little recap of my time this past year:
God has been amazing by calling me to teach, something I NEVER thought I would be doing. After the call, I got certified and took a job as a library clerk in August never expecting the opportunity to teach this year. God was still paving the way and working in my heart, and through divine orchestration I was given the opportunity to teach in October at the school I currently worked at. It hasn't been easy, but it feels right.

In the coming year, I plan to trust God more and keep on doing what I know I should be, and I know it will be a good year.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Putting it in Perspective

Have you ever cried so hard for no apparent reason or not a very good one? It just feels like the world is caving in around you and you have to cry and try to talk it out with someone nearby. Well, that happened to me yesterday. Just some advice, don't cry so hard in the morning because the rest of the day you are left with a pounding headache which seems to mock you for the trivial reason you were crying in the first place. Don't misunderstand me, it's okay to cry but also learn to lean on the Lord because He is in ultimate control of your circumstances.

My pity party began something like this. I rolled over and hit the snooze on my alarm clock yesterday morning, and as I did a whirlwind of thoughts rushed in my head and the first tear escaped. I got out of bed and headed to the den to vent to my mom. The tears were now a downpour. I began my rant about all of the stress in my life and sought comfort from my mom. My mom gave me some strong criticisms instead and prayed with me. I still wanted to pout. As I recovered from my tantrum, I headed off to work still feeling the after effects of my emotional meltdown. As I worked, I happened to check my phone for messages and received some news from a friend about the loss of a loved one.

Whew...that really made me think of how selfish I can be and also grateful for the people in my life that I can come to vent. It puts everything into perspective. It could always be worse. Thanks to the Lord; He never gives us more than we can bear. Thank you, Lord for that. Thank you also for teaching me to trust You more fully.