My blog posts deal with some very real and very personal struggles and desires that I have. The words that I type express the emotion in which they are written. That can be good and bad. The emotions in which I type right now is of a tinge of loneliness, disappointment in myself for investing time in a pointless romantic comedy, and avoidance of other more pressing priorities.
As I logged into my blog tonight, I was brought to a previous post, I'm Engaged!. This post reminded me that I am spoken for. I am the Beloved of Christ. This is the best day ever, for that reminder. I am already taken. The difficult part comes in the waiting process. Yes, I am loved. Yes, He is coming. Yes, I will be His bride. But I must be prepared. What does a prepared bride look like? A prepared bride is one that doesn't focus just on the wedding day, she focuses on the details of the marriage. This one will be for an eternity, so I need to be prepared.
As I look over my writings, I realize that I have work to do, but I have no plan of action. I have never been very good at follow through or application. I am learning now that I need a plan with measurable goals and GO and do them. I get too caught up in "planning" plans, and that is where I get stuck.
Back to my question...to write or not to write. I am beginning to realize that my motive for writing and specific conversation is for my validation, and I put way too much value on the feedback I receive. This can affect my view of my value. As of right now, I have to sort out my motive and arrange several priorities to their proper status. Until then, this will be the last post until I can strike that balance.
