Social media is so intuitive (or we freely give away our "privacy"), that the advertisers have picked up on what we want in life. I can't tell you how many ads targeted at dating sites or engagement rings I have seen in the last week. "So I am single, thanks for pointing out the obvious." Just because I am single doesn't mean I am broken. Just because I am single doesn't mean I don't have purpose. God has given me several harvests of kiddos to pour His love into and teach them how to read and shine the light of Jesus in their lives. I am grateful for that responsibility. I have a great family and church family that I can count on no matter what.These constant reminders of what I lack in life, to be honest, are annoying. As the glitzy ring catches my eye, my mind can wander to the future. Then I find myself entering the land of "If Only." "If only I had husband..." "If only I was the best teacher... and so on. This place becomes a very dangerous place to dwell. As soon as I find myself headed down the path, I quickly send up a prayer and attempt to redirect my thoughts to what I have before me.
My desire to be married and have a family is not wrong, it is just so tough to be reminded by other's happiness or ads that seem to point out that unfulfilled desire in my life. I am learning slowly that God has a purpose for this season of my life. My aim is to become holy in body and spirit and serve God without distraction (that is proving harder than I had realized) (I Corinthians 7:34-35). God also tells me to delight in Him, and He will give me the desires of my heart (Psalm 37:4). God knows my heart, now I have to trust Him and wait on His timing.
