
These constant reminders of what I lack in life, to be honest, are annoying. As the glitzy ring catches my eye, my mind can wander to the future. Then I find myself entering the land of "If Only." "If only I had husband..." "If only I was the best teacher... and so on. This place becomes a very dangerous place to dwell. As soon as I find myself headed down the path, I quickly send up a prayer and attempt to redirect my thoughts to what I have before me.
My desire to be married and have a family is not wrong, it is just so tough to be reminded by other's happiness or ads that seem to point out that unfulfilled desire in my life. I am learning slowly that God has a purpose for this season of my life. My aim is to become holy in body and spirit and serve God without distraction (that is proving harder than I had realized) (I Corinthians 7:34-35). God also tells me to delight in Him, and He will give me the desires of my heart (Psalm 37:4). God knows my heart, now I have to trust Him and wait on His timing.
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