It is time for me to put my "big girl" pants on and DO something starting with a blog post. Now what am I to do? What do I want? I want to be happy doing something that I love.
I love and hate to write. I love writing and posting on my blog. I enjoy the creative process of putting my thoughts and feelings into words. I used to write in journals and need to get back to that practice. What I hate about writing is my perfectionist tendency rears its ugly head as I try to compose the perfect post or deliver my message in such a specific way that it can sap the joy right out of it. I also have noticed that many of my posts have good advice in them, but I currently don't apply much of that advice in my own life. I want to post more on my blog, but I want to apply and live what I post. So rather than post my thoughts and ideas that I don't apply to my life. I avoid writing and posting altogether. My original purpose for my blog got lost within the first few posts. It became an online journal of sorts of thoughts and lessons that I now realize that I should apply to my life.
My renewed purpose for my blog is to chronicle my journey to health and wellness. I have shared my story and want to actually put my advice into practice. I battle with fear and want to replace it with faith and love. I want to build positive consistency in my day to day interactions and routines rather than drifting without direction to an unknown destination.
My first and major goal is my -100 pound party. I have been trying to reach this goal since 20011 at least. It is now 2016. I have come withing 4 to 5 pounds of this goal, yet my scale has never read 140 pounds.
UGH...the struggle is real. I am trying not to post what I am going to do (because I know full well that it is very unlikely that I will do it.) I want to post what I actually do to reach my -100 pound party.
So here goes, today started well with an awesome Wildberry Herbalife shake. It ended with me over indulging in the ingredients of healthy desserts that I made from over ripened bananas. I did swim and enjoy fellowship with friends as well.
I need to believe that I will get there and just do it.
I need to believe that I will get there and just do it.
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